"Trouble right here in river city"

Well, it has been a while since I wrote and that is because it has been a while since I ran. Last run was with my friend Teresa and I have not been able to go again. here's the deal, it is so cold out that I feel my children shouldnt be out there with me. I dont have anyone to watch  my children and therefore a big fat excuse ensues. It really is just me I am sure. I was feeling down and tired on Saturday and so I didnt go then. Not running makes me more tired and the longer I go between runs the harder it is to convince the inner me that I can. I want to sign up at the YMCA. It is pretty expensive so I am looking into a scholarship through them. We will see. I will do that today! I am once again feeling fat and lazy and unable to accomplish my goals.  Our life is so chaotic right now that it seems all elements are against my success.  The 5k is SOON and I am not sure I am ready. I will go tonight after the children go to bed and run even if I have to run in the dark! This is my goal and now that it is out there I feel a bit responsible for completing it. i am excited that my parents are coming into town soon and maybe I can lay the children on them in the mornings while I go run. Hey, that is great! I am actually excited about that idea. It is after they leave that will be an issue. I will figure something out, I guess.Bye