You can't believe it

You may think I have gone off my rocker by now.  You must notice that I have a certain love/hate relationship with running.  Well, today is no different.  My son woke up very early and so we were all tired and he wasn't feeling good and it was threatening rain.  All of these combined lead me to call and cancel our run for today.  Well, my friend did not get the call and came over anyway.  I must say that I adore her persistence, she never left my front door til I answered (which was probably half an hour).  Give her props for loving me enough to stay put and keep me going.  So I went over to her house and we took a nice mile walk through her neighborhood.  We walked because I have been fearing that I will injure my ankle if I am not careful.  We walked at a good pace and at one point found a pear tree that the children benefited from generously.  It rained right before we went on our walk and started raining right after we finished.  I think the Heavens are with me in this adventure, what do you think?  I had a few errands to run and by the time we got home my baby was asleep and my daughter wanted lunch.  After lunch my son awoke and I was feeling a bit antsy, normally I would insert food here, so I decided to go for walk/run #2 for the day.  Yes, I did the hills!!!  The mail lady commented 3 times (we past her twice and then she delivered to us) how great I was doing and how she did not know how on earth I was pushing those two babies in the stroller up those hills.  I must say I am still wondering how I did it.  I was not thinking about pain or pushing through or anything but "I must finish this race, and in order to do that I must get going"!!  This was my motivation and I will tell you I have never felt so alive!  It was up to me and I went for it not passing the hard hills or walking the whole thing.  I pushed and ran my heart out and it was incredible.  I could compare it to something I have felt before but this is a pg blog.  I was invigorated, happy, high!  This is my new food.  I have found something I really want to do instead of eat.  I know I am going to go back and forth but for now, right here in this moment nothing seems as fantastic as running so long that the burn in my legs and ankles feels like a warm sensation.  Today was a great day!  This will be the day I look back on during rough times.  Tonight at dinner I did not overeat and I actually thought about running again.  that wouldn't be good for me so I am not going to but can you imagine how it must be for me to not want to eat my leftovers right away.  I didn't bring them home because I didn't want to seem like a pig, I brought them home because I was truly finished with the meal.  The piece of dessert I had was too much........NEVER has cheesecake been too much.  Wow.  I am amazed at myself.  Unbelievable!  I am not sure I have ever said this out loud or even in silence but " I am proud of myself!"  Insert smile......Bye