moment of clarity

As I was speaking with my mother I had a moment of clarity.  I must tell you the conversation was great.  Here goes.......Robin is my rock!  Where would I be without my sisters????  I think our family has come together in incredible ways.  I am not sure I shared the story of the couple stopping to cheer me on.  I should have, if I didn't I am sorry.  I was running the hills in my neighborhood and as I was climbing the big hill I was struggling and pushing a stroller I was crying and breathing hard and gasping for air.  An SUV passed us and I put on a smile and waved as they passed.  I got passed the hill and once again the SUV came toward us.  But instead of passing by they stopped and the gentleman (probably in their 50s) spoke to me, he said "good job, keep going, your doing great."  His wife in the passenger seat was clapping.  This moment is what keeps me going when the teenagers in the neighborhood are laughing and mocking me.  There have been people stop to look at me, I imagine them wondering how so much fat can be moving on one person at once.  it has been difficult.  But the happiness will be worth it!  Our family has recently had some financial strain and my husband is in school so with fees and books and other needs we have been pinching pennies.  This brings up one of the other trials I face through this journey.  I am having to come up with the entry fee for the marathon, the hotel and airplane costs and all the other little items that cost money.  So I have started asking around for work, cleaning, cooking, babysitting and other things.  I am going to put my homemade jewelry on e0bay to sell and I am putting up other things I can sew on the Internet as well.  All of this combined has given me reason to believe that without any doubt God is in this with me and He has shown me the path I should walk/run.  When I was down and stressed and frustrated with these trials I turned to Him.  He who created the world can and will give me the strength to go on.  I received a phone call just today by someone wanting to help me and is giving me the opportunity to earn some of the much needed money.  Once again, how thankful I am to my friends and family for listening to the subtle but strong promptings of the Spirit.  You are my strength and my rod of Iron in this test and journey.

Thank you all 

If someday my children read any of this I hope they see how hard Mommy has worked.  How much I love them.  How I want them to be healthy and strong.  I want them to understand that no matter what you face in life it CAN be overcome and worked through.  I want you to know S, Bcc, and Bl, "I love you more than you may ever know, I did all of this for you as much for me!"

This entry has been emotional as most of them have been.  Thank you for bearing with me and reading my blog and commenting on it.  The power of your support really does make a difference to me.  

Thanks.....Bye