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several people have commented on my disappearing act on Wed.  It was a hard, rotten, no good miserable day!  Yep, one of those. I headed for my favorite doughnut place about 15 miles away.  It is too long a drive to make usually, in fact we've only gone there once, but this was a rough day and I WANTED, nay I felt I NEEDED to eat, eat, eat.  On our way there I realized I would like to not get caught up in this again.  I turned around and went to sonic for a limeade.  It was perfect and tasted great.  Not exactly the healthiest in the world but better than 6-7 hot doughnuts.  Yea me!  Ok, this is where some people would mock that the fat girl would eat 6-7 doughnuts.  Yes, all fat people know we are fat!  It is not like we are unaware that the doughnut is NOT included in the "breads" category on the food chart.  But for some, eating is like working out or playing golf or soccer.  It is a form of release.  There is a certain satisfaction that comes from eating the hot, fattening delicious doughnut that we would not get from eating an apple.  I have been on diets.  The diet world is created to make fat people buy a product that wont work so we feel like a failure and want to buy another diet product.  Yep, conspiracies are my thing......ya know big brother and all.  he he he.  Seriously, that is why I have avoided drinks, pills, gimmicks of all kind.  I am going to do it right if it kills me!  Anyway, I will get back to the original subject......I ended up not run/walking on Thursday or Friday.  I was however determined to go the distance on Saturday.  And I did.  After a party Sat night a few friends and I went walking.  It was a decent pace, not too fast but not slow either.  It was fast enough that it was hard to breathe and talk but not so hard that I couldn't talk at all.  I went 2.80 miles!!!!!!!  I actually felt like going more.  I think that if I take the first mile a bit slower then I can really go for the next few in running.  I am going to stick to my schedule but I am looking forward to Saturday to try  my new theory.  So, I know someone who offered to be my personal trainer and she is very well qualified.  I have been so intimidated and scared that I never called her back.  Yes, I'm a wimp.  How do you think I got fat!  Well, I saw her today and actually turned around to go the other direction and thought " this is your chance to something fabulous.  You have been offered the chance of a lifetime opportunity, take it"  so I went down the hall and said hello and started a conversation.  I am going to call her tomorrow and we will get started.  She is going to have me keep a food journal which of course I will be sharing.  I have to list everything I put in my mouth.  You guys are in for a treat this week.  "A look into the eating habits of the obese.  More at 10pm. Back to you Charlie" This should be very interesting.  

oh yea, I wasn't really sore after my walk on Saturday.  My foot that I think I broke was sore but it is always complaining.  

I am really going to be doing some amazing things.  Pray for me that I will have the strength to not give up.  My very life depends on it!   Bye